My 1st Post in the Year of RAT
Went to my mum's shifu place to bai nian today. She asked my bro what he hopes to achieve and his reply to her was he wants to be happy. This reply was exactly the same as mine when she asked me previously, last year if I didn't remember wrongly. She proceeded to ask him how he is going to achieve that, what will make him happy. She suggested to him to write down the events or things whenever he feels happy, so that when he's old, he can reminiscise the past happy memories. That is why, I decided to start blogging again. The main reason being, I have a rather poor memory. Blogging reminds me of the events or things that are significant to me.
Being happy is my goal in the past as well as in the future. Although it takes time to become truly happy with oneself, I will keep on trying. At least I think I'm happier in Year 2007 compared to Year 2006 and I want to be happier in Year 2008. When I was a kid, I was happy as I'm not easily bogged down by unhappiness, I cried it out or threw my temper and forgot all about it. Most importantly I could have a carefree childhood as I did not have to worry about school fees or whether there was food for me to eat. Besides, I was given the chance to learn piano, drawing and swimming and all these are possible because I have a very noble father. Since young, he has been working very hard to provide for the family. He goes to work by 7am in the morning and returns only around 8pm everyday ever since I was born. He spends a large part of his life working, yet he hardly spends the money he earns.
Today, my mum's shifu brought up an issue which has been weighing in my dad for a long time. It has been my dad's wish to have someone takes over his business. He has been slogging hard to achieve what he has now, so he does not wish to see his efforts go to waste or pass to others to reap what he sows. The question is who. None of us has voiced our interests in taking over his business. Personally I think my younger brother will be the best person for the job. He has an interest in motorbikes and I think he has better social skills than my elder brother and me. However I feel that my dad will prefer to let my elder brother take over. Anyway as long as either of them is willing to help him, that's good news, at least it's a load of my dad's mind.
In the past, I aimed to earn at least $4-5K monthly, but now given the rising costs of living, I think $8-$10K is a more realistic gauge. Although I do not spend alot, I do not buy branded goods, I hope to be able to spend as and when I feel like it, provide my kids with the best to live comfortably. I do not want to be burdened by debts nor worry about meeting my ends when I'm old. Hence, my the other goal will be to be successful in my career so that I will be able to earn alot of money. My dad can do it, so can I. I will, I can, and I must.
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Shopping Spree
Took half day tdy, actually to offset a sat I worked few weeks ago hee. Had lor mee with mum at ah moy, then we went Suntec together with my bro. Spent quite a considerable time choosing suitable shoes for my dad, with my bro as a model, keke. Ended up buying a pair of shoes for my dad, if he can't fit the size my bro will take it and my mum bought herself a pair as well.
Was approached by a ctb sales person, pushing me to sign up for credit cards, haha so ironic. Told him I know the various credit cards ctb offers already cos' i used to be in ccmu haha. But anyway, under the persuasion of my mum and him, I sat down and listened and eventually decided to sign up for the dividend card, since there's cash rebate and my mum gets to enjoy 3% discount when she goes to top up her petrol.
Went to buy a suitcase for my bro since he's leaving for Australia next yr for his studies, hee bought it at a good rate since they are having sales. Had yummy yogurt and a BK cheese stick after that, yummy yummy. Our next stop was John Little as I received a ltr tat allows me additional 20% discount on cosmetics, toiletries etc. Wait wait, that's not all, after spending at John Little, we came across a newly opened store that sells mainly polo-t, we each bought a piece and we already decided to wear it together on our trip to kukop next sat haha.
By the time we reached home it's nearing 7pm liao, phew. Feeling physically weak and tired now, dunno how I'm gonna survive my yoga class tml, ahhhhh
Thoughts
Reached home, removed makeup and contact lenses, changed into my shorts and did some skipping, about 200 plus, hee. Decided to adjust my routine to a healthier lifestyle and since I don't really enjoy jogging, I shall start with skipping first. After my dinner, went for a stroll with my mum around our estate for around half an hr, hee healthy siah...hope can stick to this routine tml as well :P
Have been spending much time with my family ever since darling went Australia, and kinda gotten used to such lifestyle already. Some may thk that there's no life if we just head home after work, I don really agreed actually. Being able to spend time with family, discussing work, family matters, tv shows etc. is something valuable, cos' family is impt to me.
Nowadays, can leisurely help my dad with his mails, discuss issues with him and be his gd listener etc. In the past, used to feel that he only cared abt his wk and didnt bother trying to understd us. However, ever since I started working, and began to communicate more frequently with him, I began to see things more clearly. Every day without fail, he will leave home by 7am and reaching home at 8 plus at night and all these yrs of hardwork have in fact taken a toil on his health. I know that he does care for the family, just that he expresses it in a different manner and everyhing he does is for the interests of the family.
I realize my parents are getting old, they have more white hair, they get tired more easily etc, and I'm already a grown up, it's time for me to do something for them, to care for them, to share their burdens etc rather than them doing for me. Being the eldest, I know I have to help my parents guide my bros, to lessen their worries. I want to care for this family whenever I still can, I don't wanna have any regrets.
Busy busy busy
As expected, it was a very busy week for me without my mentor around. So many things to handle all by myself, argh was basically racing with the time. Luckily at times a colleague sitting behind me will offer her help when she has nothing on hand, at least helps to lessen my workload, phew.
1 more week to go...and this week will be more shiong, cos' a clerk is taking leave from wed to fri, so that leaves me and another clerk shouldering the work, haiz. I'm beginning to feel that my job scope is way too broad, and starting to doubt whether I'm able to handle it well. Whenever something new crops up, I will feel stressed and challenged cos' my mentor is not around and I have to count on myself to solve the pblm. However, once the pblm is solved, will feel a sense of satisfaction.
By the way, I spotted a white hair yesterday, ahhhh...actually I kinda saw it few weeks ago while trying on clothes at boutiques, but brushed it aside cos' tot it was just the reflection of light. Looked very carefully at the strand of hair yesterday and it was really white, OMG...the white hair meant signs of ageing, too much MSG taken and stress.
Went for a blood donation at West Mall after my yoga class yesterday, the whole procedure was quite fast actually, maybe cos' it's still early (around 12pm). The nurse who took out the needle was not experienced cos' I felt a sharp pain and the pain lasted for a few more hours after I got home, haiz. When I took off the bandage at night, could see a large patch of blood on the gauze, and there's still a bit of blood oozing out...luckily the bleeding stopped after a bath.
Visited my aunt at KK hospital, hee her baby was very cute, chubby with rosy cheeks and a small mouth. Tried to carry her twice but I don't really know how, so in the end my mum said better not in case I sprain her neck etc. The nurse named her "little princess", hee. Could see the joy on everyone's face especially my mum when she carried my little cousin :)
StreSSed
My mentor cum AM is going for her leave starting next mon and will be back only in October. That means I will be the only one "looking after the house" (a description used in my workplace) liao. Today, she reminded me of the tasks I need to cover during her absence, and taught me some stuff which I might encounter.
Actually, so happened I was telling a colleague from another team that I'm feeling kinda stressed, afraid I won't be able to cope when my AM goes for her leave during lunch. I think my AM also feels kinda insecure cos' she already did those tasks which can be prepared in advance, so that when the advice date comes I just need to check whether there's any changes in the shareholdings and send out to clients. Didn't expect her to do that actually, hee was worrying abt such stuff actually since the tasks are new to me.
Was thinking maybe my supervisor will make use of the next 2 weeks to evaluate my performance cos' my AM is not around to remind/correct my work, so it's either I make it or I screw up. Haiz, that's why feeling exceptionally stressed and tml is the last day to ask my AM questions. Hope I won't need to call her when she's on leave :P Tml's the final day to ask whatever questions/doubts le, ahhhhhh...
